8 Days Remaining

I completely forgot to mention Vinnie’s emails because of course I got off track yesterday once I started to talk about Bobby.

No mail from Bobby today but I have had people who have some connection to him reach out to me. People want or need to talk and some just want to ask questions. Very interesting to see how connections are made. How small the world is. How many people one man can affect…. a couple of these individuals are very interesting and I look forward to working with them…. you know who you are.

So Vinnie…

One of the things I asked Vinnie last November what - “exactly why did you kill Gerard Schafer?”

I can’t believe it. Vinnie does not play games with me like Bobby. No prison porn. No requests for posed pictures. Just an answer and a statement that he is more than willing to speak with me. Ask away…

Guess what?

I was wrong in my guess of why he killed Schaefer. I wasn’t even close.

NOPE… not telling you yet.

I need time to ponder this and to get more answers. This will be something that I speak with PCubed about and I am sure we will add it as a supplement to the Murder and Mysteries with Massnick podcast.

9 Days Remaining

Ok, I know I said I would talk about the back to back emails I received from Vinnie the other day. Can’t believe it has taken me several days to actually have the time to look into them and then process what I think or feel about what he had to say.

My life is busy and hectic with a million opportunities and I would not have it any other way; however, my plate is a little OVER full at the moment. Sad that I just said to PCubed that in a little more than a week, things will lighten up some. Did I really just say, that once Bobby is executed my life will slow down? That is an absolutely reprehensible thing to say….

but I guess if we look at it from a purely professional viewpoint, without emotion - then I don’t sound like such an ass (or horrible person.)

AND Bobby is not responsible for my plate being so full, I am. Besides 8 pm, May 23rd will come and go and it just means that I move on to the next step in this process. What can I possibly have to do once Bobby is gone? What I truly care about…..

FOCUS ON THE VICTIMS

sadly there are so many to talk about

10 Days Remaining

Since yesterday was Mother’s Day, I didn’t focus on “work."

AND NO…. nothing in the mail from Bobby.

How annoying. I am not only trying to get answers to his case and see what he may say about his victims but I also want to know what life is like for him now that he has been moved from Union to Florida State Prison and is on suicide watch.

I know that his tablet was taken away. I am thinking about that one. Not that it matters to me one way or the other but why take it? Is it because he can use it to harm himself? He does not have access to the outside world other than on JPay and his music/book app. Not like he is able to see what the media or public is saying about him.

Honestly, I don’t think Bobby would harm himself. I think he is too self-absorbed for that and maybe not “strong” enough for that. I do not mean that lightly. I can’t think of a better way to say that, that doesn’t come across like an academic. What I mean, is that Bobby has a pattern of avoiding situations that might cause him pain or harm or …. mmm a situation where he is not the one in control.

If you listen to our podcast, then you heard the story of the home invasion where his parents were tied up and robbed. Bobby hid in his bedroom the entire time.

Fast forward to this month and Bobby refuses to make the 2 hour and 45 minute drive from Raiford to Tampa for his court hearing. Why? Because being bound and shackled would be tantamount to torture.

These may not be scientific reasons or validation that he would never hurt himself but I think he enjoys playing games with others entirely too much to give up the game early. Remember these are my thoughts and ramblings at a specific moment. I may and probably will change my mind a thousand times within the next week and a half.

This is just a weird, messed up situation that I have put myself in. I love to explore and figure things out but when you know that finding the light at the end of the tunnel probably will not happen…. I go from wanting to pick at him all the harder, to asking why I continue to write him and play the game.

Won’t matter for much longer.

11 Days Remaining

I can’t help but laugh. I can’t get one inmate to write me … the one who has a little issue with the amount of time left to write and then I have another who has less patience than I claim to have?!?! I didn’t think it was possible for someone to be more impatient…

Email from Vinnie at 3:24 pm

wait for it

wait for it

Email from Vinnie at 5:40 pm

He wrote a lot in both emails. I am a little confused about some of what he says. He is talking about “get back on the streets.” Based on what I have read from his inmate sheet, I don’t see how he could ever find himself on the outside.

I will have to reread the emails and then do some digging.

Since I haven’t gotten mail from Bobby is a few days, I have the time.

12 Days Remaining

I have decided that I want to go to Florida State Prison on the 23rd regardless…. of being inside or out.

I was speaking with my Dean, explaining how this execution could be an educational tool for our criminal justice students. One of the courses I teach is Corrections and Penology. We discuss the entire process which includes the punishment, the death penalty.

I have met people who are in the middle of the road and see the selective (case by case) use of the death penalty as well as those who are opposed regardless of the crime and others who are so pro that they think they would be willing to implement the shock, drugs or whatever themselves.

I think recording this event from outside the prison walls, interviewing people on both sides of the debate as well as the people who live near the prison would bring a little reality to my classroom lectures. I, myself have never explored this other than in a text book and if you know me then you know that I am not that kind of professor. If I am to impart knowledge then I should continue to gain knowledge.

So, I have booked my hotel and will stay just outside of Raiford for a day or two. “Cheers” to caring enough to advance my own education and to be willing to become a better professor than I was the day before.

13 Days Remaining

Haven’t heard anything from Bobby and trying not to worry or obsess about it. Does it annoy me? Absolutely. Why? If for no other reason, I am used to getting what I want. That does not mean that things come easily. It simply means that I am willing to work, push, pull and plow through in order to get something… and right now I want answers and if it was just for me then I would just be annoyed and take what may come.

BUT…..

This isn’t about me. This is me wanting to be able to educate people about Bobby and hopefully get some piece of information about the victims that we haven’t heard. Something that lets us get to know them on a personal level, not just what happened on their last day on Earth.

When these last two weeks have passed, I will spend time trying to get those anecdotes from family and friends. One thing you should know about me is that even if I there is something I want…. I will not go after it to the detriment of others. If family does not want to interact with us because it is painful or maybe they have had bad experiences with others before me…. I will not push AND I have never had to. I think people respect the place I come from and THEY have reached out the ME.

I am thankful for that! <3